The Unexpected

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It’s been hard for me to think too much about the trip lately. If I think about it too much, I start to feel anxiety. Of course I’m excited for the trip, but an unforeseen occurrence is making it harder for me to accept that I’m leaving so soon.

I never expected that I would be in a relationship when all this was happening, but that’s just how things worked out. Now there’s constantly the knowledge that I will have to leave Jess when we set out on our trip. How I’m getting through it is not thinking about what will happen between us when August comes around, and just enjoying the time we have together now. I know that Jess and I will always be there for each other, even after the trip is over- but having to leave someone who I am so emotionally close to will definitely make things harder.

Look on the positive side, me- she’ll meet us somewhere along the way, and we’ll stay in touch. But that’s months from now, and I have to live in the moment. To blatantly steal from RENT, “No day but today.” That’s how I’m living right now. And I know, above all else, that everything will work out in the end. That is how I live my life. I cannot wait to see new places, help people, learn, and spend time with my family. I cannot imagine not being able to spend time with Jess. But I know that somehow, these two things will be reconciled, because that is the beauty of life.

That beauty of things working out, of things being okay in the end, is what I want to try and give to the people we meet while we are on our trip. They deserve to have that faith in their lives. And we will try our hardest to help increase that faith.

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Posted on: February 11, 2010 | Categories: It's Tough to Leave, Pre-Departure Thoughts

 

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  • Emily says:

    Hey Jen,
    I hear ya. It will be tough to leave, the thoughts, anticipation and preparation probably the worst. Once you set out on the journey, things will start making sense. Keep taking deep breathes, they always work to calm the body and mind. And when you need a good laugh, remember the big deep breathe you took many years ago when Alex, David, me and you were playing the “feather” game and you swallowed our feather!!

    Love and faith girl. We will be thinking about you.
    Love,
    em


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